Archive for April, 2010

Some days, it’s almost not worth getting out of bed.  I have been feeling pretty grief stricken lately.  Choking back the tears and not letting myself feel the pain of losing both parents.  Not letting myself cry.  I don’t know why.

Yesterday, I had a moment when I thought my sister had been in an accident and I was panic stricken.

My grandson is using some pretty bad words on Facebook and when I tried to talk to him about it, he told me to stay off of his page.  He has since unfriended me.  I worry about him.

Logically, I know that I need to let go of the  pain and feel the feelings.  I just can’t seem to let myself  do it now.  For my entire life I have been burying what is too painful to bear until I either forget or am able to handle it.  I guess something was bound to come back and bite me in the ass.


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