Some days, it’s almost not worth getting out of bed. I have been feeling pretty grief stricken lately. Choking back the tears and not letting myself feel the pain of losing both parents. Not letting myself cry. I don’t know why.
Yesterday, I had a moment when I thought my sister had been in an accident and I was panic stricken.
My grandson is using some pretty bad words on Facebook and when I tried to talk to him about it, he told me to stay off of his page. He has since unfriended me. I worry about him.
Logically, I know that I need to let go of the pain and feel the feelings. I just can’t seem to let myself do it now. For my entire life I have been burying what is too painful to bear until I either forget or am able to handle it. I guess something was bound to come back and bite me in the ass.